Saturday, January 17, 2009

Curve Ball

If you follow my blog regularly you know this has been a long blog break for me. Busyness and schedule kept me away for a couple days and then we had a curve ball throw at us this week . . . Jason got laid off from our church after being here for 2 1/2 years for financial reasons. I've been all over the place on my emotions and thoughts on it all. I'd be lieing if I didn't say I'm hurt over it all! My man is good at what he does, he's genuine and you won't find a lot of guys like him. Let's break out in a cheer for him . . give me a J . . .J . . . okay enough of that!! Really it has been a hard couple days but we know that many are experiencing the same thing in this economy and I can say we are very thankful it's a job loss and not a health issue with our kids or something life altering!

Today while out walking I was thinking of just how thankful I am that my family has taught me to laugh!!! I've done a lot of crying over the past 48 hours and some yelling too so it's been refreshing in the mist of it all to just laugh!! Laugh at the kids, laugh at ourselves, laugh at the way some of this was handled, whatever . . . we've just laughed. Thanks for that gift mom and dad, it's helped!!! I went for a walk the day this all happened and after getting home I realized if anyone was looking out their window I had to look like an idiot . . . they probably wondered WHO I was talking to because I was walking alone (I was talking to God) and why I was kicking snowballs like I was trying to make some sort of last minute goal in a soccer game! I was just pissed and needed to kick I guess?? HA!!! I'm probably pegged as the psycho lady in the neighborhood now!

We told our kids today and we started by telling them all daddies have a job, some work at a bank, some at a store and so on. We then told them Daddy wouldn't be working at church anymore and immediately Coleson said, "Oh daddy is going to work at a bank?" It was obviously a short conversation and everyone seemed to feel as secure today as they did yesterday!!! Our kids have such child like faith . . . later when Ian picked the conversation back up with us and asked where Daddy would work we told him we didn't know but that he'd always take care of us. His immediate response was "Yeah, well just like he always does." He has NO worries! He trusts in our care without question . . . such a great reminder that God does that for us!! He ALWAYS takes care of us and we just get to come along for the ride and TRUST HIM!!

9 comments:

Heather said...

Nicole, I can't keep you and your family off my mind lately... You've been in our prayers all weekend. Let us know if there is anything we can do for you guys! I love you to death!!! I loved talking the other day. The thought of you moving about kills me, I hope, hope, hope that doesn't happen.
Let's get together sometime soon!!!

Amy said...

Hey Nic, I heard the news about Jason last night and my immediate thought was "oh no, please don't move away!" - I know, totally selfish and I'm sorry. Your family is in my prayers. Feel free to call on me if there's anything you need. Excellent job teaching those kids - they know what they're talking about ;)

MKTaylor said...

Nic, I am sitting here crying after reading your blog. You did such a great job expressing what you are feeling. I think I would have been doing more than kicking snowballs. I would have been the crazy lady yelling in the street throwing snowballs at all cars that drove by. God has shown me in huge ways how He provides... my little Tatum is my continual reminder of His faithfulness. I know you know that already... hang in there girl! Let us know if there is ANYTHING that we can do to help!
-Kel

Melvena said...

Wow! Nicole, you're right, talk about a curve ball. I am so sorry that this has happened. I'd be pretty upset too, in fact I'm kinda upset too.... I know the faith you and Jason had (and still have) when you moved to Utah. You and Jason have faced the unknown together many times and you're faith has always seen you through and you know it will again and again and again.... Even so, it doesn't take away feelings of anger, hurt, uncertainty and questioning God. Please know that I hurt with you and that I am praying for you and Jason. Know that we love you very much and miss you. Wish I was there to give you a big hug.... just pretend that I am :) Love, Melvena

Monica said...

I haven't read anyone's blog in awhile, due to business (I guess), but Nicole told me the news Sunday and I am just now getting to read and respond. WOW! The only thing that comes to my mind is that God has something Bigger than you and Jason know right now! His plans will amaze you once He opens you to them. I pray for you and your family. I hurt with you and your family. But one thing is, God usually knows what he is doing! LOL! I love you guys and I know your going to do amazing things still, you two are going to hit that curve ball and amaze the crowd (your family and friends) and we will all be here cheering for you! Love ya Nic!

Cale and Kim said...

Nicole and Jason - we are SO sad to hear this. I think your family is handling all of this quite amazing though =) You have been in our prayers and will continue to be. Please let us know if there is anything we can do. Love, Kim

DSneezy said...

I love you guys and want you to know I'm praying for you. I e-mailed Jason today to express my thoughts and thanks and just wanted to include you in it. You're right that he is amazing at what he does and he has a great family to support him and back him up. I love this entry and I love how honest you both are with your feelings. I HATE that this happened. Really I can't believe it. So, just know that I'm praying for you and hoping that this just means there's something better God has... I still think it sucks though. Love to you both!

Becca said...

Oh my gosh! My eyes are tearing up...I want to call you right now but it is one in the morning your time! I guess an email will have to do until morning!

Jenny said...

Hang in there Nic...I am thinking of you and your family...love ya...jenny

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