Hello Blog World

Hello Blog World.
It's been awhile.
I took a blog break - an unplanned blog break - my longest blog break to date.
I'd love to say I've just been busy.
I have.
Tball  - Field Days - Subbing - Sick Girly - Track Meet - And everything else normal moms of 4 do.
But this blog break has been somewhat of a unique thing for me.
I've struggled to know what to post and even as I'm typing am not sure I'll press "post".
Awhile back I was challenged by a speaker that said in our day of social media we many times take things in and pass it on before we receive it for ourselves, so to speak.
This speaker was not down on social media at all but the concept is true and in my life right now I've had to think about that.
I've been struggling.
Struggling with some emotions that many of you have probably experienced at one time or another.
Different circumstances but same emotions.
I'm not done learning all I have to learn or am on the other side yet of what I'm experiencing however I have been trying to "receive" it and process it for me first.
The emotions have be down, blue, depressed . . . whatever you want to call it.
We're processing a lot of things right now.
We've been on a journey for some time now and I think it's fair to say one can just flat out get tired.
Tired of unknowns.
Tired of decisions.
Tired.
You start to lose your fight.
I've been laughing that some people try to do one act of kindness a week or day but in this house we like to make one big decision a week.
Funny I know.
But it's so true.
It can get taxing.
Decision making takes so much energy.
It takes so much time - something we don't have a lot of these days.
One thing I know is that in the mist of what we feel when we are down God is working in us.
He trumps our feelings.
This has been a much better week.
Stuff still is swirling around me and I'm still tired but I feel some hope.
Hope that I'm moving in the opposing direction from where I feel I've been going.
Hope is good.
There is ALWAYS hope.
I have always valued authenticity - it's hard to be fake.
I guess this post, which in a way might leave me feeling exposed, is me being very authentic with you.
If you made it through this long post I'm hoping you aren't feeling down now too.
There's nothing worse than passing your negative emotions off onto someone else.
I just want to say that I know there are so many reasons that women get down.
Their are experiences that warrant stronger emotions than others; I've tried to keep that in focus.
I have girlfriends that have been fighting bigger fights and life altering fights for way to long.
It's good to always keep things in focus.
I don't know where each of you are at in life but if you are down don't keep it in - that's the worst.
Share with someone. Your man, a friend, family, a counselor.
Fill your mind with God's truth.
Exercise.
Get good sleep.
Take your vitamins.
Maybe you need more outside help.
Again, share with someone.
Remember I said this is a much better week.
Last week I probably would have left you feeling ready to just crawl back under the covers.
It's ok to do that every now and then but like my husband says, "If a season doesn't have an end it becomes a climate." (little food for thought)
Some of you sweet girls sent me some really nice emails. Thanks to each of you !!
Didn't mean to scare you with my lack of posts . . . our physical health / our marriage / all that jazz is  great!!!
Don't worry, I won't become the Debbie Downer Blog.
My next several posts will be full of pics of all those things I mentioned at the top of this post.